injured but improving

The good news is, it’s better than it was.

The bad news is, it’s still not where I want it to be.

Saturday night was pretty rough. I was only comfortable with my right knee slightly bent. It hurt to fully extend my leg, and it REALLY hurt to bend my knee more than about 90 degrees. I could only rest when I was on my side, but even that wasn’t totally comfortable because I couldn’t easily move. I didn’t get much sleep that night.

I was exhausted on Sunday morning due to my lack of sleep. I could put weight on my leg, but I could only walk with a limp. It was difficult and frustrating to move.

On Sunday afternoon, I took an ibuprofen and went back to bed. Surprisingly, I slept hard and had a great 3-hour nap.

As I lay in bed that night, I was surprised to realize that I was laying on my back, comfortably, with my leg extended. That was my first clue that I was improving ever-so-slightly.

Today, I skipped my run. My knee feels better, but still not 100%. I can straighten my knee, and I can bend my knee farther, although there’s a point (around 45 degrees) where it still hurts quite a bit. I’ll take another day to rest, but on Wednesday I might consider a short run.

Truthfully, I am reasonably confident that I’ll be in good shape by the time my race rolls around. I’m just overwhelmed with race anxieties! 🙂 Even though I know my body will be in good shape, and even though I’m confident that I can finish 13.1 miles, I want to improve on my previous times. I want to finish 13.1 miles in less than 3 hours. I want to feel strong the entire time. I’m not confident about that!

I keep trying to squeeze in a really good long (12 miles or so) run before my race, and I keep getting sidelined by one thing or another – weather, injuries, you name it. I’m (still) extremely tempted to run that long distance next weekend, but I’m also very much aware that I have a highly increased risk of (re-)injury, and a more severe injury could prevent me from running the race entirely. It’s a huge risk. I don’t like it, but I don’t know if I have a choice!